Unpolished Gem

Just confirmed my place with LSE. That's it! It's final, confirmed. I'm Goooooing. It's like a committment. More likely, they want to guarantee that you'll be bringing the money with you, so it's sort of like a contract. The London schools are the LEAST friendly, all the other unis have been sending stuffs regularly to lure you and give you more information about their school but all the London schools care about is to ensure that you're perfectly aware of the costs and have every evidence to prove that you can afford it. (What a put off and i'm still going there! The irony, what to do, for the sake of prestige) My father has been telling me all about SAFETY in big cities and i can't help but feel that he's more worried about it than me. Fathers are especially protective of their daughters i think. I'm really looking forward but a little scared at the same time, anyway it's still a long time away so not thinking too much, somehow it seem...

On Crystal's advice, i've fixed Mr. Raphael Chua for my next( hopefully last EVER) 2 lessons... Yes, i coughed up more, but since he is so good as Crystal attests to and it guarantees that i won't get mute, useless instructors, i sure hope he can work miracles and pump some confidence.

Yeap... that's how much i spent AGAIN on driving test. For the 3rd time... enough is enough. And i'm getting freaked out because the more times you retake the test, the lower your confidence. If you go beyond like 3 times, It's really difficult it becomes a burden, takes a toll on you mentally, financially, physically. Need a job now... recommendations any? Easy way to make money besides tuition?

Ah... I'm so bored. No one's at home and i've been sitting infront of the computer the whole morning surfing around and guess who i stumbled upon? Mah Bow Tan's son... So strange right? Maybe i should play tennis? But those 2 girls are playing at *gasp* Jurong!!! Good for venting frustration you know... smashing balls. To go or not to go? Jurong... Jurong... Gee. Okae set, my test is on 6th June. Only 1 revision lesson on that day itself, I hope i won't forget how to drive by then... Yucks.. i shudder at saying that word. And please please don't let me get THAT mute instructor, he is so unhelpful, feel as if i'm paying 60 bucks just for vehicle rental. Maybe if i fail again... i should like beg the tester... " Please Sir! I realise my mistake, it was my fault and i know i wouldnt have committed it under the usual circumstances, my instructors told me that my driving is okae but i don't know why i fumble during the test. " If all else fails - k...

It's so funny how i've been repeating the whole "saga" on how i committed that immediate failure mistake for the 100th time. Should just take a tape recorder and play it to whoever wants to find out about how i failed. My parents are highly amused that i'm still harping on it after a whole day. I was thinking of possibilities of getting round the test, such as bribing the tester but i'm afraid he'll give me... Immediate failure for *gasp* bribery! Anyway, there have been cases of people who have been banned from taking the driving test for 2 years for attempted bribery, but that was a looong time ago, in the era when they took their tests. My mouth is all dry from talking and yakking non-stop. Oh... how i wish to tell everyone " I PASSED! " . Full stop, end of story and i can put this whole driving episode behind me. When? Just when? Who can guarantee i will pass on 3rd try? I told my father or rather he suggested staying over at the driving scho...

Well, you can guess the outcome of the test from the title right. I am in distress mode now! Damn sad, one wrong turn and that was IT. Can't believe i was so blind not to see the car coming, what was i thinking?? One immediate failure... bye bye! Accumulated 22 points and the tester said he would have let me pass if not for that IMMediate failure, who else to blame but myself right. Man, i was trying my best to be vigilant, even wore a hairband to prevent my hair from blocking my sideview( you know what happened on first try, got accused of not checking vehicles on side road ). Think i was too happy that the circuit was so empty (only the cars on test were using it) that i wasn't alert enough. Still, i FAILED! I really hate to hear that word. Strange things happen when you're sitting for your test somehow, it's so demoralising. And i won't forget that big fat lexus who refused to give way to me on the road, just kept speeding up and i ended up having to change lane ...

All i can think of now is how i'm going to tackle the driving test tomorrow. I wish all the vehicles and people would clear out of the road, man i wish the driving school was at some GHOST Town! Then i won't have to worry about causing other vehicles to take evasive action or slow in responding to danger (mainly vehicles and pedestrains). This bad feeling REFUSES to go away! So sick of driving in the circuit, going through all the test routes.. it's just frustrating and i wish tomorrow will be the LAST ever! Cross fingers, cross toes, cross legs and please pray that i don't get the same tester ( he doesn't like my face i'm sure of it! ). Oh did i mention that i saw Xiao Fen ( LinXiangPing) at PS filming some show, that was before the 9 oclock show ended and i was almost tempted to ask her "Xiao Fen, why must you die?". Yeah, i think she's the most innocent! Anyway, she was really good at PR, doing that Queen Elizabeth wave and "hello" thi...

I have this really bad feeling that i'm going to fail my driving test again! Choy! All my instructor said today was : Watch out at the traffic junction and release your clutch slowly when moving off. That's all. How helpful feedback! My driving wasn't that good, just didn't feel very right and that's all the feedback he could give me. Yawn, i almost fell asleep at the wheels and knocked someone down. Bad omen right! I could have been given an immediate failure for that! I must learn to OPEN my tiny eyes bigger and there is only one more lesson to practise tomorrow. Oh no... Really don't want to fail again! I was in the car with my mother turning left when this bright blue audi convertible suddenly reversed into our view very fast, i was quite pissed but all was forgiven when i saw the person inside the car( oops, haha :) , this damn macho guy driving TOPLESS! ( He looks like John Travolta of the 1970s, obviously the comparison came from my mother! ) I guess h...

I'm insanely mad! I just failed my driving test! So much for learning driving from the school to up chances of passing on first attempt. After the warm-up, i was pretty confident of passing cos the instructor said my driving was good, no major mistakes everything smooth. And then the test started, inside the circuit was fine except for directional change when i went very near the kerb( can't believe it, never faced this problem before! Why? Why? Why? ). But i didnt' strike the kerb and he gave me 14 points just for that, 10 points for striking and 4 for failing to confirm safety. The worst parts were on the road, he said i was a poor driver because i failed to look our for traffic at the side road, change gear too slowly, poor steering, road hogging ( absolute rubbish, just because i didn't keep left cos there was this car parked at the bus stop and it was somewhat in the left lane so i chose to keep left only after the car and that's considered road Hogging?!?! ) F...

Yes, i finally ran! Such a chore getting my butt off the chair to run. It was such a painful run, i ran till my ear drums hurt. No idea how that happened but i felt as if i lost 5 kg after that run but of course it was useless cos i indulged in my everlasting favourite Tip Top curry puffs, otah, Haagen Dazs icecream, oh by the way, Haagen Dazs is having an offer now, either 2 for $21.90 from Esso Mobil Petrol Kiosk( they stock up an amazing number of flavours compared to supermarkets) or 3 for $25.90 at Cold Storage (flavours are pretty limited to tiramisu, vanilla, chocolate(boring flavours) ) The only time it's worth it to buy Haagen Dazs is when they have offers, else $12.90 for a pint is a little ouch*. Today is Mothers' Day! ( I'm such a horrible girl, how can food take precedence over Mothers' Day! oops) My mum is one strange one, she dislikes presents (almost close to hating). And flowers are her worst enemies, she'll scream if we buy her flowers. She likes t...

I really did want to get my excercise routine up and running but it's not just a simple matter of changing into your track shoes and taking off. On Saturday, I was feeling a little (okae, maybe very) lazy so i decided to give myself a little leeway since well, it's just the BEGINNING! So i procrastinated... bad move. Sunday evening it started raining ( weather man's finally accurate), too bad, i mean not that i didn't want to run, heaven just wasn't kind. And Labour Day, went out with my family till late, you see again it's not my fault! There, it was wrong not to run on Saturday and things just didn't work out after that. Procrastination is bad... but i might just do it again! HAHA. The weather these days is BAD. Scorching hot. I just want to hide at home, and from what i heard, it's not about to let up till end of May. Sometimes, the weather just makes me want to get out of Singapore!