Unpolished Gem

There is something very liberating about not being at work on a weekday. No rush hour on the tube to deal with, no waiting for lunch hour, no pretending to be busy clicking away at the screen, no waiting for time to pass faster. I often question myself how it is possible to think that the industry is right for me when 10 months after joining, you still feel like an amateur and dare I say it- disengaged at work already. Yes, the merger created uncertainty but how much of the discontment can you put on it? 80%? 60%? 10%? Could it also be that they think they’ve hired the wrong person for the job and therefore not looked into my development. Surely if they think you’ve got potential they would want to teach you quickly but that has been sorely lacking on the job in this organization so far. Or could it be they sense that my life-span with the company is pretty short so no point wasting their time training me. But it’s not like working in the Singapore office would lose them anything! So m...

This morning, I woke up reluctantly at 12.30pm after a night of very controlled drinking with many men and girl talk with Nat. My mum called with news that a 28 year-old Singaporean girl has been killed in the Mumbai terrorist attacks. She was described as bubbly, confident, passionate and kind. These are words I associate with myself and while I have not achieved all of the above, I hope that with experience and exposure to this grand institution called life, I will in due time. She was the eldest in a family of 3 girls and a career woman who lived life to the fullest. This news struck a chord in me because I could have been the one, or any of my friends. The first thing that hit me was, this is so tragic, uncalled for and senseless and imagining how her family and husband had to cope with this untimely tragedy. The next thing that hit me was thinking of a solution- governments and intelligence agencies world wide nab the bad guys. And finally, what carpe diem really means. (So much f...

1. Do not overeat. 2. Do not spend so much time on freaking make-up in the morning and miss the earlier tube and end up standing all the way to work. Absolute bollocks. 3. Speak only Chinese to my Chinese friends.

because work is starting on Monday and it feels so weird! Considering i've been slacking for the longest time ever and the 3 weeks really passed pretty damn quickly. After the first week I was like... wooh, this passed soo quick, but i forsee the next 2 gonna be really slow. But no... in a blink(well, many blinks of zziness ;)If u ask me what i've been doing day in day out, all i can muster is sleep approx 10-12h every day (no alarm! That i have to say is one of the most annoying soundsssss), watch all sorts of dramas ie Jap, Korean, Amerian, Reality TV, movies, clean the house, deco the room, shop- aLOT ie IKEA, sample sales, vintage fairs and the works of knightsbridge, oxford and carnaby street which have left me close to pauperish, eat- aLOT (One of the best discoveries in recent history is CHACHA MOON, i was super craving for chai dao kuey as many of my friends would know and i found something sooo close there in the form of CHACHA MOOLI which is basically like bigger chun...

Because winter is coming... Sweet dreams are made of these First time experimental

I think best when I’m sitting on the toilet bowl in the morning. This happens on occasions when I have the luxury of rolling around in bed until I’m fully awake. And it’s been a while. This morning, I woke up and thought I lost my soul, so I rolled some more but still I felt empty. The last three months have been nothing short of a roller coaster ride. My closest friends would know about how a certain someone wrecked some emotional havoc within me. I was probably over reacting and irrational half the time, allowing my heart to get the better of me which I’m not prone to do because I am almost always a very rational and practical person. But indeed, with time, the dust has settled and I have regained full control, the inexorable truth has never been clearer. No more what-ifs, finding excuses and playing mind games. And I feel like a great burden has been lifted off my blades, if anything, this will make the separation a lot easier. Concurrently, the final exams, the last bread...

hi guys! Just suddenly felt like typing again, who the dang dang is sopskyslat? I googled it and turns out its a pragueian dish? Er, sopskyslat... if you're from Prague, can I stay at your house when I go visit? Anyway Anyway, gosh, the buzz of school is UNDENIABLE, feels great to be back in action actually, after nuaing for like 4 weeks at home, it's time to move on! I'm glad i came back earlier, so feeling much more settled down now. I'm just trying to do some research now and applications, so, lets just say things are moving, GOD BLESS! Anyway, i'm sick of staring at the computer pages of company reports, so here i am, back at the blog. I just had a parttime job interview which I thought went badly cos firstly, I was JUST on time, like seriously just made it cos my stupid clock was working on a dying battery and that made me late! Had to squeeze with the morning crowd at Bank which was insane, wish i was walking on stilts so can overtake everyone. And just got n...

This is really turning out to be a disastrous exam year. Bye bye 1st :( Then I console myself by saying, oh well, no first class then no first class lor. It's just a case of not being good enough and being obsessive, I don't like getting 2nd when I know there's a 1st. It's like I decided overnight that getting 1st is simply not within my reach. Working hard can only take you so far right, afterall. Sigh! Nah, i'm mature enough, this can't beat me!

Just needed to let off some steam/excess Micro 1 energy, whatever you call it before i embark on studying for macro. The paper wasn't that tough but i'm not confident of getting a first, made some silly mistakes which should have been avoided and just felt that I wasn't at my peak during the paper even though i studied so much for it already. Yeah, I should really be more grown up about all these exam things. But I always still find it daunting and scary. 3 more papers to correct the bad karma from Micro 1. I'm still upset about not having done better but I've got to pick myself up ... quick. Oh, have i told you about how much i dislike wearing glasses. That's one of the reasons why i dont like the exam period. Feel like a 24 hour nerdddddddddddddd

I suddenly feel like going to China. I'm thinking about the what could-have-been if i did apply for the programme. Yeah, just feel like going back to my ''roots'' so called and just immersing myself in Chinese... the culture, everything! It is such a beautiful language, and I wish I was better at my Mother Tongue. (this has got nothing to do with ** btw, haha!) And I don't think i'll ever get the chance to do something like that in the future because this is my last holiday before working!

Ahhh! There are thieves in the library. Never thought people would be driven immoral during exam period and have the audacity to steal notes!!! Now, i'm so wary of leaving my stuff around. And i can't find out who did it, so irritatinggggg, they should have CCTV cameras. The thing is, how would the person know that I would be out of the library for long enough for him/her to take action ie, the person must have been watching me and saw me getting out of the library. Oh... schemeing. I should ask the girl who sits opposite me if she saw anyone taking my stuff. Pft! To prevent such further incidents from happening, I might have to lug my stuff out everyone i'm gone for long hours, that's soooo troublesome. Cos that would include lunch break. Or that's a risk I have to take for studying in the library. It didn't happen at all last year, so, perhaps i'm just unlucky huh. Woah, to think I thought I found my perfect area in the library to study. Anyway, cant belie...

Yay! I'm 21! Just had a very lovely picnic/squate-down-on-the-floor-kampung style bbq at the park behind my house! Thanks to Michelle's idea! And i had alot of fun. And thanks to everyone who came for the food and the presents and just taking the time to come down cos we're all stressed by on-coming exams. Just makes everything that much sweeter! Yeah, and last night, when I came home, i thought everyone was sleeping already cos it was so dark and, surprise surprise! I had a birthday cake, yeah, my very blatant request for a black forest Paul cake came true! Thanks to my housemates :) :) :) Woah, I really got a shock! And to Miss Hui, you're the sole singapore representative in London, thanks for the presents babe! See ya in June! And my mum got me this really nice watch that i so adore, similarly good taste, Heh! Thank you mummy, love ya! Okae, i'm very tired now. I would love to post some photographs but my eyelids are drooping and I will do it next time. This blo...

OMG! It's been 2 months since the last update. Thought i'd drop a note to say HELLO, i'm still alive and hope everyone's doing well! I was on the verge of abandoning this blog but knowing myself, I know there'd come a day when I'd actually feel a little urge to blog, and wala, took about 2 months... haha. Anw... i'm blogging because... i'm suffering from post-holiday depression. Germany was SO awesome, loved it, loved Berlin, loved the people and to anyone interested in going to Berlin, please stay at JETPAK City Hostel, it's the best hostel i've stayed in, VERY clean, good location, internet access, very nice and friendly staff, loved it. You're missing out if you don't stay there in Berlin, i swear!... Unless you're going for 4/5 star hotels. I met Yoke Pean and her friends and we so coincidentally booked the same hostel, took the same flights to and from Germany, so Mich and I were with them for most part of the trip, twas FUN FUN ...

I hate waiting i hate waiting i hate waiting!!! How can they do this to me... ! -faints

I'm going to fail POF and POE! Always come out of class feeling like i dont know anything!!! BOO! I can't wait to study for it. Anw, the wait is killing me... I want to know. NOW. I usually don't think about it but when my thoughts linger and imagination runs wild. But i'm so scared of disappointments.

These days are characterised by a spring in the step and just general comfort with everything. I can't really pinpoint it to any one thing, it's just a sort of inner peace. Contented and counting my blessings. Was just thinking, the chance to be educated in a top institution is really one of the best things that has happened to me. And the thought that there is less than half the course to go saddens me. As much as I complain that POE is the bane of my life, and POF is almost there as well, I do see the big picture at the end. I'm excited about the modules available in year 3 already. So perhaps, I should really consider doing a Masters? But where and what? Food for thought. I want to read a book, drink coffee and eat a slice of moist chocolate cake. Yumm. and... I would like to extend a warm welcome to Miss Michelia Hui to the UK! HELLO! BIG WAVES :)

Yeah, after making the last cut to get into the Indian Finance Minister talk, I found myself sitting next to Mr Lim Hng Kiang... the minister of ___? Haha, Would have greeted him if i didn't forget his name then! What a surprise! Finally managed to catch a public lecture, it was kinda exhilarating to be among the last admitted in and it was a great talk. I always feel so enlightened after listening... Hope there will be more interesting ones coming up. Looking forward! And Sir Howard Davies is really funny.